Completed and Ended 结束了

2008 is coming to the end. This indicated that many things had either completed or come to the end.



I had completed my first semester in my third year study for my degree. This was a tough semester since most of us suffered from assignments and final exam. No matter how the result was, I had completed this semester and moving towards the last semester and the final challenges in my degree life.



Ending of Year 2008, means that I will be in my career field soon as I am expected graduate in mid of year 2009. What is going to happen to me in that moment as global economies is in recession? Am I able to be employed and is it my desired career goal? Nobody knows.



I had ended my relationship with her at the end of year 2008. I had told her the reasons for me to do so, and just need a trust from her. If she believe others more than me, I could say, I can't do anything. We have our own goals at the moment, and I am not able to take care of both simultaneity. I am sorry about that, and I understood that everybody will curse me on it. However, as I know what I did is good for ourselves, I don't care about what they said. I would also make my sincerely apologise to those who have high expectation on us. I make you all dissapointed.

Just came back from party. It a nice an unforgetable party. Part of them are graduated. This might be farewell party for them. Congratulate Sheryn, Adelene, Hansyn, etc, and those who were not at the party. Hope we can meet soon.

Going back hometown few hours later, and is leaving to Kedah on the night itself. It will be a very tiring stuff.

2008年来到了尾声。这也标志了许多事情已经完成了，或者结束了。

我已经完成了大学第三学年的第一学期课程。这个学期我们所应付的功课及考试，让我觉得好艰辛。无论如何，这个学期结束了，必须向前进入最后一个最具挑战性的学期。

来到2008年的尾声，代表了我即将在2009年年中毕业后踏入职场。在这个经济低迷的状况下对我会造成怎样的冲击？我是否能如愿受聘于我所期待的工作？没有人知道。

2008年的尾声，我也和她结束了半年的感情。我已经把我这么做的原因告诉了她，只希望能获得她的相信。如果她相信别人多过相信我，我只能说，我不知道应该怎么做。正当我们拥有者各自需要追求的目标，我无法同时兼顾到两件事。我只能道声抱歉，也深知很多人会因此而责怪我。然而，我知道我的出发点是正确的，我也不顾他人如何看待。我也要很诚恳地向对我有很高期待的人，我让你们失望了。

刚从友人举行的派对会来。是一个很难忘的派对。当中也有经毕业的同学。这个或许是他们的一个告别晚会。恭喜Sheryn, Adelene, 涵欣，还有那么没有参与这次派对的同学。希望能在和你们相聚。

再过几个小时就要回家了，当天晚上又要赶上去吉打州。这将是一个很疲倦的旅程。

Overcome Varies Challenges, Move Foward Better Life 跨越种种挑战，迎向美好未来

I had been busy for the whole November. After Sports Carnival and the Champion Luncheon was completed, the course work start keeping my life a horrible life. I need more time to complete my assessments, because I have to make sure that the works are always fulfill the passing rate. Due to this reason, while dealing with this semester's assessments, I had never sleep before 12am. Even though I understood how harmful is this to my healthy, but I really do not have the choice. I think, after the semester end, I should have a great break.

During the process no planing for my holiday, somethings happened and make me force to changes a lots of initial plans. I should go home and attend my girl friend's sister wedding on both 29 Nov and 6 Dec, but I went for referee camp during 29 Nov in Melaka, and leading my college community service team to do research in my hometown on 6 Dec. I had promised to help the community service team during their activities which start from 18 Dec to 24 Dec. However, I forced to go Alor Star at 20Dec to 28Dec. There is a national basketball championship there. My christmas and "dong zhi" had burnt. Now I only understood why those politician always do not able to attend some functions.

Year pass by year very fast. It is third year for my FIBA referee and it is the time for refresh my liciense. I should well prepare for the refreshment test or my referee life will stop. This is the first challenge for me.

Next semester is my last semester in college life. While I saw my friends suffering from doing their final project, I start worried about it. Next semester is tough and will be my second challege.

After graduation, is the time for me to step into the work field. Where should I go? I wonder i could able to get a job during recession, and the job really suit me? It is my third challenge.

Maintaining a relationship life is not easy as I thought in th pass. Am I able to maintain it while facing challenges??

My friends told me, "If you think you can, you can." This is the only philosophy I could follow when I face the above mentioned situation. Cheers, I can do it!

11月对我来说，是个非常忙碌的月份。当体育嘉年华和冠军庆功宴结束后，课业压力真是令我恶梦连连。为了达到及格标准，我需要花费更多的时间来完成我的功课。基于上述因素，我已经没有12点之前入眠的正常生活作息了。尽管我明白熬夜所带来巨大的副作用，但是我别无选择。我想，在这个学期结束之后，我该给自己一个很好的休息了。

正当我策划我的假期计划之际，许多突发事件让我必须改变初衷。29/11 和6/12 应该是我出席女朋友姐姐婚礼的日子，但是29/11 却必须出席在马六甲举行的常年篮球裁判营，而6/12必须带领我学院的下乡服务团到我故乡进行考察工作。原本答应在18日至24日他们下乡服务期间给与全力协助，却因20日至28日必须前往亚罗士打为元首杯篮球赛执行任务而无法兑现给与他们的承诺。我的圣诞节和冬至没了。终于明白了那些政治人物经常说未克出席一些场合的原因了。

挑战1：时光飞逝，3年的国际裁判期限到，是进行重新检测的时候了。我必须好好准备来应付这个体能测试。

挑战2：下个学期是我学院生涯的最后一个学期了。当看到朋友们都在为毕业论文忙得不可开交，我开始焦虑了。下个学期，是个艰难的学期。

挑战3：毕业了，是我踏入工作的时候了。我该往哪走？我怀疑我自己是否能在经济低迷的这个非常时期找到一份适合自己的工作。

挑战4：维持一段感情并非容易的事，我以前都以为好容易。当我面对上述挑战的同时，我是否能兼顾呢？

朋友告诉我说，当你认为你行时，你就行。当我面对这一连串的挑战时，我必须相信这个信念，否则，我将无法跨越。

Out Of Service 暂停服务启示

Dear Valued Customers,
Due to the coming assignments and exam, the blogger service will be stopped for a month until 1st December 2008. Thank you for those who always visit here and gave a lot of support. Sorry for inconvenient made due to the temporary closing. I will be back on by then. (Never face this kind of stress before)

Management of Chenfanchong.blogspot.com

亲爱的顾客，为了应付多项作业以及考试，这个部落格服务将暂停一个月，直到12月1日为止。 谢谢那些过去以来给予我支持，以及前来这里浏览的朋友。对于这项短暂暂停服务所带来的不方便，在此深感歉意。我将会在12月1日晚上再次投入运作。（从来没有过的压力）

曾繁翀部落格管理层启

Annual Ball Eve 晚会前夕

17th October is the date for DESCO annual ball. Everyone is fade out of those preparation job, as well as rehearsal for the performance, especailly my vice-president, Shyuan, had contibuted all of her time for the ball. What had I done? I done nothing. So sorry to mention it here.

The reason for me to join DESCO mainly due to widen up my network HELP University College, especially Department of Economic. Other than that, I hope to exert my knowledge gained from the past experience in sport field and help the department to go further. However, after I work with each other, then only realise that I still need to improve a lot in term of communicate with each other, and also learn how to plan and make decision as a leader. I should improve on those area that gap exist.

This is the first time for me to attend a grand ball. Even thought I have to on duty during that night, but I am still enjoy the process of working with each other. I do appretiate the moment we discuss, come out with ideas, work together, having fun during work... This gave me a good memory on my last year studying in HELP University College.

Other than that, while talked to my friend during supper, I also found that there are a few area that I need to improve. I should know how to enjoy, change my current lifestyle, make it look like a youth behave. I think I am too old in term of thinking, and my point of views are different with typical youth thinking. I also have to arrange arguements in my mind, state it out clearly with good reasons in order to convince others. This is a quality of leader which I always looking forward to be in the future.

10月17日是经济部学生会常年晚会的日子。每个成员都因筹备工作而疯狂，也为彩排练习忙碌。尤其是我的副会长，璇，更是贡献了她所有的时间来筹备这个晚会。至于我呢做了什么？我什么都没帮上忙。为此对各位深表遗憾。

当初参与经济部学生会的目的，莫过于希望借此拓展自己在精英大学的人际关系，尤其是经济部。除此之外，我也希望能将我在运动方面得到的相关知识运发挥得淋漓尽致，让这个部门能向前迈进。然而，在与大家共同合作了之后，才发现我还有很多不足的地方有待加强，包括如何与他人沟通，以及学习一个领导人应有的策划和决策能力。我希望能够在这些弱点上加强。

这是我生平第一次参与如此大型的晚会。虽然当天晚上还必须值班，但是我非常享受与大家合作的过程。我非常珍惜彼此一同讨论，集思广益，一起工作也不忘娱乐的时光。这让我在精英大学的生涯中添上几许的美好回忆。

此外，刚才与朋友共进宵夜的谈话过程中，也发觉了一些我必须加强的地方。我应该学习如何享受人生，改变我现有的生活形态，让他更年轻化，更有活力。我认为，在某些程度上，我的思想会比较保守，想法与一般的青年有所不同。我必须懂得如何整理我的思路及观点，以便能够更清楚地阐述来说服他人。这是一个领袖应有的素质，也是我对未来所期许的。

Speak Up With No Fear 敢怒敢言

Speak up with no fear became a very hot topic among MCA general election discussion. Dr Chua queries Datuk Ong's image on speak up with no fear. Both of them had aimed for MCA president chair.

In the past, most of the BN members dare not speak up on some unfair manner made by UMNO. This made UMNO had the most authority among BN members. Some of them abuse the right and cause some misunderstanding among races. However, after 308 general election, BN had beated badly. The BN members started blaming the failure to the abusement of UMNO leaders. The culture of 'speak up with no fear' created, and UMNO is now become more carefully on making some desicions in order to take care of the other members' feeling.

In MCA, there is some leaders who dare to speak. However, there are also some leaders who dare not to talk much in order that their official position are safe. I appreciate what Datuk Ong, as well as Mr. Wee done on some issues. They having outstanding performance on coming out some issue. They are, someone who really contribute to Chinese, as well as other races in Malaysia, and strike basic welfare for them.

Opposition parties, such as DAP, PKR, etc. most of their leaders, like Anwar, Lim father and son, etc. dare to speak up in many issues. They also take the risk of arrested under ISA, sometimes, to show their dissatisfied. Public like the way they done. However, we should also analyse the whole picture of the issue. Do no judge something too fast by looking at its cover, as it might lead to a regret in the future.

As be fair to everyone, I queries Hindraf on the issue of Hindu temple being backout by Klang city council. Why Hindraf do not speak out anything or give comments on this while Hindraf raise the roof on the same issue in the past? Is it because of the ministerial party differences?

敢怒敢言如今成为了马华公会党选的一个热门的话题。蔡锐铭医生质疑拿督翁诗杰敢怒敢言的形象。他们两都是宣布竞选马华总会长一职的领袖。

过去，国阵成员党都不敢对巫统所犯下的一些不公平举动呛声。这造成了巫统在成员当之中掌握着最大的权利。小部分的巫统领袖开始滥用权力，造成了一些宗族误会的问题。然而，308大选之后，国阵遭到了痛击。国阵成员党开始责怪巫统滥权领袖造成了惨败。敢怒敢言的文化崛起，也让巫统了解到做任何决定时必须小心谨慎以便顾及友党的感受。

在马华公会中，有些领袖是敢怒敢言的。当然，也有部分领袖为了保住本身的官位而不敢呛声。我个人欣赏拿督翁诗杰及魏家祥在一些课题上的作风。他们在揪出弊端及其他课题讨论上有着出众的表现。他们，真正的为华社，以及其他我国民族贡献及争取最基本的福利。

此外，一些反对党如行动党、公正党等领袖， 例如安华、林吉祥父子等，都非常勇敢的在一些课题上发言。他们也冒着被内安法令名堂下拘捕的风险来表达他们的不满。公众都非常喜欢他们这样的作风。但是，我们应该多了解整个课题的内容，避免在非常表面了解的情况下作出判断，造成日后的遗憾。

为表公平起见，我疑问兴都教权益协会为何在此次巴生市议会拆除兴都庙的立场。为何兴权会没有在这个课题上发表任何抗议，却在过去相同事件上大表不满？是否与执政的政党有关系呢？

Mourn For Ying Xing 悼念映兴

Get shock while I read the news that my friend, Ying Xing was being murdered yesterday.

She was only 16 years old, look sweet and very friendly to everyone. She used to worked in my brother's telecommunication shop. She was my father's student too. I knew her, during a procession in my hometown few years ago. She performed Chinese Yoyo that time. She was such a nice girl that work very hard. I often met her when i attended some functions and she worked for the beer company or restaurant as waitress then.

Due to her sweet look, as well as her good result in her study, she had attracted a lot of admirers, eventhough she was young. Maybe, this is one of the reason she be murdered.

I condemn on those murderers. If she do not displease you, how could you all done this? She is innocent. What wrong to her? I fully support that murderers should be punished badly.

Everytime while she met me, she will give a very friendly smiling to me. The last time was during a temple ceremony in July. Everything is now become a memory. I do remember every smile you gave me. Ying Xing, Rest In Peace.

昨天当我看到那宗骇人的谋杀案遇害者是我的朋友映兴时，我是无比的惊讶！

她才16岁，有着一张甜美的样子，对于每个人，都是那么的亲切。她曾经在我哥哥的电话店工作过，也曾经是我父亲的学生。认识她，是在几年前的一次神诞游行。当时，她表演的是扯铃。她是一个乖巧而且勤劳的女生。我也常在一些宴会场合碰见她，当时，她是为啤酒公司或酒楼工作为侍应生。

由于他甜美的外表，加上她不俗的学业成绩，她也吸引了非常多的爱慕追求者。这，或许是她遇害的原因。

我严厉谴责这些凶手。如果她并没有冒犯你，为何你们要这样对待她？她做错了什么？她是无辜的啊！我绝对支持判予凶手们重刑的决定。

每当我遇见她的时候，她总是用她的招牌笑容相对。最后一次就是，是在七月份的一次神诞表演时。现在一切都成为了回忆。我会记得每一个你给我的笑容。映兴，安息吧！

I have a clear conscience 问心无愧

Attended an basketball invitation and became referee for it last week. It is a international invitation game where 6 teams from different countries participated. It is quite a good chances for me as a FIBA referee to gain experience, however, I had been 'favor' as patriotic referee, not even me, most of the Malaysian referee were involved.

The press had published articles that many spectators deem that Malaysian team can beat Singapore which is a hot team for strike the champion is due to the referee take sides for the host team. In the final day, I am one of the referee for the fianl game, which is Malaysia against Korea. Korea's coach appealled that the referee for the game is seriously take side and cause them lost the game.

The organizer was using three mans officiating in attempt to make the game run smooth. I am the referee, a referee should be fair and justice, this is a rule that never change. Everytime while I was officiating basketball game, I do not take any subjective elements in my judgement because I knew that it might influence my judgement. I wish to be praise as a good referee, and therefore have the chance to perform in higher level game in the future.

Man do make mistake. While I was on duty, I always try my best to minimise mistake. However, sometime we still be scolded by spectators, players and even coaches when they disagree with my judgement. Sometime, the misunderstand occur because of different angle, and sometime we do admit that it is a mistake. The players' action are very fast, but we have to make a judgement in 0.5 second, it is a tough job. Those who became referee before understand us.

I had to declare that i have a clear conscience everytime I officiating game, including the game between Malaysian and Korea last night.

Nevertheless, everything was over. It is now the beginning point of my third year study in college. I should be very clear about what should I achieve at the moment and do what shoud I do now.

在上星期出席了一项篮球邀请赛，也担任了该赛会的裁判工作。这是一项国际邀请赛，共有6队来自6国的队伍参与其盛。这对我身为一名国际裁判无非是个累积经验的好机会，然而，我却被冠上了爱国裁判的荣衔，不只是我，几乎所有大马籍裁判都一样。

在一篇新闻报道中，观众普遍认为马来西亚队能够击败夺标大热门新加坡是因为裁判偏帮主队的缘故。在最后一天，我是本赛会最后一场球赛的裁判之一，对垒队伍为马来西亚与韩国。韩国教练申诉导致他们输掉这场比赛的原因是裁判员严重偏帮所致。

主办当局采用三人裁判法，以便球赛能顺利进行。身为一名裁判，我深知公平与公正是裁判员应有的本质，是个不变的定理。每当我在执行任务的时候，我都不会将主观因素融入我的判决之内，因为我了解，这样绝对会对我的所有判决带来影响。我希望能被赞赏为一名好的裁判员，从而有机会在更高等级的球赛中表现我的裁判法。

人非圣贤，孰能无过？每次我执行任务时，都会竭力将失误降至最低点。然而，当我们的判决不被认同时，我们还是时常被观众、球员、甚至教练员责骂。有时，我们必须承认失误，但是有时却是角度不同的因素导致误会的产生。球员么的动作东很快，裁判员必须在0.5秒的时间内反映并且做出判决，是一项艰巨的任务。曾经担任过这个工作的人，就会明白我们的处境。

我必须在一次强调，对于每一场比赛，我问心无愧，包括昨晚马来西亚对垒韩国的比赛。

不过，一切都结束了。现在是我大学生涯第三年的开始。我应该很明白我自己的目标，以及我应该如何去达到这个目标才是。

Condemn on Inquilinous Talks 谴责寄居论

Few weeks ago, a Penang State Assembly Member come out with "Inquilinous" talk against Malayasian Chinese. Me here, strongly condemn on that.

In the year 1957, Malaya became independent. This is the contribution of 3 main races' leader which included Malay, Chinese and Indian. We all grow in the same soil, breathing the same air, work together, share the achievement together. We try our best to make the country progressive, peaceful and develop together, now and forever. No one can question on these.

几个星期前，一名槟城的州议员发表了华人是马来西亚寄居的言论。我在这里，强力谴责这项言论。

在1957年，马来亚独立。这是我国3大民族的领袖的共同贡献。我们生活在同一片领土，呼吸着同样的空气，一起工作，一同分享我们的成就。我们也努力地促进国家繁荣、和平与发展。现在如此，以后一样。这是没有人能够质疑的。

Lowering Down 15 Sen 降价15仙

Few days ago, our Prime Minister announced that the fuel price drop 15 Sen due to the world fuel price had drop dramatically in the past few weeks. However, this announcement do not get any good response from the public as they think this will not have any effect on the high inflcation rate which is 8.5% released by the government at the same day.

Permatang Pauh by-election will be on 26th of August. As Party Keadilan Rakyat's candidate Datuk Sri Anwar offer a lower fuel price than current government did, this had attracted greater number of supporters and threaten Barisan National stability to be in the saddle.

After calculation, many economist believed that our country current fuel price can be lower down 30 Sen instead of 15 Sen. Fuel price should be adjust twice a month in order to give greater effect on boost the sag's economy performance, said some politicians.

In my opinion, other than lower down the fuel price, eleminate bribe and wasteful project, implement those plan that is benefit everyone will enable the government to retrieve trust from the public. Racialism style of politic had been conspue as the world is open minded than the past. Parties should change their objective to adapt the changes.

数天前，我国首相表示，由于国际油价在近几个星期的猛烈下滑，我国汽油价格也相对调低15仙。但是，这项宣布并没有获得民众的热烈反应。 一般认为，这项降价无法在政府同天宣布的8.5%的通货膨胀指数中产生任何有利的效果。

巴东埔补选即将在9月26日举行。人民公正党候选人拿督斯里安华扬言将在执政后给予比现任政府更低的汽油价格，吸引了更庞大的支持者，也威胁了国阵执政的稳定性。

在计算以后，许多经济学家都认为汽油价格可以调低30仙，而并非15仙而已。一些政治人物也表示，汽油价格应该随着全球原油价格走势进行每月2次的调整。

我认为，除了调低汽油价格之外，杜绝贪污及不必要得挥霍计划，并且实行惠及全民的政策将可挽回人民对政府的信任。正当人民都有比较开明的思想，种族主义政治已经被唾弃。所有政党都必须改变自己的政治目标来适应这个局势。

Pending...Worries 等待中的焦虑

Three months holiday is coming to the end. While I review on what I had done during this period, I realised that nothing much I had done. No achievement accord to the target that I set at the beginning of this long holiday, but only little task I had completed.

Time past days by days very fast, and it never wait for anyone. I am going into my third year of study in HELP, and last year study will be more challenging than before. I should be well prepared before the new semester start. Therefore, I have to start something NOW!

Financial problem had put me into the mess. I dare not think about how to settle my tuition fee that I had to paid it next month. I am now someone with debts, even though it is not a big figure (Not my fault indeed). That is a worry.

Will seperate with girl friend soon for three months after new semester start. I had used to the day which stay beside her for those days here. I wish to spend more time to take care of her, even though she had the ability to take good care of herself (this is what couples always did). The days without her should be lonely. Second worry.

I will flood with DESCO jobs after three months hibernate. Planing and implementing all sports related activities, putting effort in order to accomplish annual ball with my committee mate, etc. I have to start my final report proposal, enroll for LAN subject....So much things I had to complete within 3 months. Question myself, AM I CAPABLE? Time is essential for me...Third worry.

Luckily, my elder brother will transfer and work in Singapore next month onward. So, there is someone who can look after my home and guard my youngest brother attitude, instead of me. He is always my worry, while he had typical teenager's mind.

There are so much worries, pending and approaching....

Olympic game started. China 100 years dream come true, Congratulation!!!!!

My cute nephew was just born this morning, I am UNCLE now. Congratulation!!!!!

3个月的假期来到了尾声。当我回顾这段期间所进行的一切，发现到原来我并没有做了很多事。没有达成任何我假期前所定下的大目标，只有小部分的任务顺利完成。

时间毫不留情地流逝，没有停步等待任何人。紧接的，就开始了我在精英大学的第3年学习生涯，也是比之前更严峻考验的最后一年。在此之前，我应该有心理准备迎接这一切的降临。因此，我应该开始“做些事了”！

经济困境仍然困扰着我。我没有办法去想象如何解决下个月就必须交缴的学杂费用（相信船到桥头自然直）。目前的我也算是债务人，虽然这个数目并不很大 （说真的，不能全怪我）。这是我第一个焦虑。

在新的学期开始，将会和我的女朋友分开长达3个月的时间。已经习惯她常伴在我身边的那些日子。虽然她已经有能力自我照顾，但是我还是希望能多花些时间来照顾他（这就是情侣常做的事）。没有她在的日子，应该很孤单。第二个隐忧。

经过了3个月的冬眠，我即将被学生会的工作给淹没。计划及执行所有体育相关的活动，竭力协助完成常年晚宴等等。。。必须开始我毕业论文的计划书，上LAN课程。。。那么多东西要在3个月完成。问我自己，我能胜任吗？第3个顾虑。

所幸，二哥即将在下个月开始从吉隆坡转至新加坡开始他新的工作。所以，至少在我回到吉隆坡念书后，还有个人能照顾家里以及看管及监督最小的弟弟行为。一直以来，他都是一个担忧，自从他有了典型青少年的思想。

很多的焦虑，在接近中。。。

恭喜北京奥运成功举行，中国百年梦想达成。

恭喜我外甥的今早出世，做舅舅了！！！！

Make Grieved A Motivation 化悲愤为力量

My friend had inform me about my last semester assignment marks this afternoon. The result is not that bad but I am not satisfied with it.

This is not the first time I dissapointed with my result. Everytime after the result released, I felt that I can do better than that. However, during the process of study, I always demotivated.

Last semester, I had a lot of time to study as I do not have extra subject despite the 3 subjects. After the 308 general election, the only activitiy I took part in is DESCO, but that do not spent a lot of my time. So, what had I done at that time???

Next semester will be the 5th semester for me, and soon I will graduate in 1 year time. This will be the last chance for me to perform in my study. I always feel that I learn nothing in my university life as I never serious to my study. Regret change nothing. Hope that I can have the consciousness from this lesson and make grieved to turn into motivation in my last year study.

今天下午从朋友口中得知上学期作业的分数。虽然分数不是那么得不理想，但是对我而言，确实有点不满意。

这并非我第一次对我的成绩感到失望了。每次当成绩公布的时候，我都觉得我可以做得更好的。然而在读书或者温习的过程中，我却常常缺乏动力。

上个学期，我有很多的时间来读书，因为除了那3科以外，我并没有拿任何一科附加的科目。在308大选以后，我唯一参加的活动项目就是DESCO的活动， 但是这并没有花费我太多的时间。我到底把时间花在哪里？

下个学期是我的第5个学期，离毕业仅剩1年的时间。这是我最后一个在可以方面表现的机会了。我常会觉得我的大学生活没有让我增加任何的知识，只因为我很少认真过。现在后悔是无济于事的。但愿我能够从此次教训中学习，化悲愤为力量，在我的最后一年的大学生涯中全力以赴。

Unstable 不稳定

To me, there are two things that are unstable for me so far.

First, as everyone knew, our country politic is unstable. Beside our formal vice-prime minister Datuk Sri Anwar sodomy case and the current vice-prime minister Datuk Sri Najib and the Mongol lady case, the pressure for appealing Prime-minister Datuk Sri Abdulah to step down is also getting hot. All these unstable factors will definitely cause our country economy go into recession, and my personal development plan will also be affected as involve in politic is my ambition.

Second, while my relationship life is just started, therefore, there are many uncertainty. I knew that trust is very important element for couples, and how to build 'trust' between us is a challenge. At the begining stage, it is quite difficult. Hope this unstable factor will not become a reason for us to seperate.

Unstable and uncertainty cause bad effect. Please leave me alone....

目前，对我而言，有两件不稳定的事。

首先，众所周知，我国的政局非常不稳定。除了我国前任副首相拿督斯里安华被卷入鸡奸案风波、现任副首相拿督斯里纳吉被指与蒙古女郎案有关外，我国人民施压要求首相拿督斯里阿都拉下台也正热炒中。这些不稳定的因素会造成我国的经济陷入不稳定的因素，而我个人对于从政的发展计划也将受到一定的影响。

再来，因为我的感情生活才刚刚起步，所以，存在着很多不稳定因素。我明白信任对于一对情侣来说是很重要的，而如何在我们之间建立这份信任才是真正的考验。在这开始的阶段，实在有点困难。但是，我希望这个不会是我们分开的理由。

不稳定必将造成负面的影响。拜托，请远离我。。。

I Will Accomplish What I Had Promised 我承诺，我做到。

Falling in to a dubious relationship with her after the Genting trip. Having a very special feeling toward her, is just like fall in love at first sight. Our character is close, and our point of views are harmonious, but our age is a obstruction. I had overcome this phycgigenic disorder very soon, but the pressure and objection from her family members become another new challenge.

Her sister is having the most power among her family. After she knew about our dubious relationship, she met me to have a talk. Luckily, we used to be colleague for some project, therefore, I am still a nice character in her mind.

She told me that her sister is treasure among her family, they do not willing her to get any hurt. And under this situation, they over protect her and cause her very dependent.

I agreed with that, and my standpoint is, to protect her as well. Her sister have no comment on my current relationship with her, but she is not fully support her to get into a relationship life right now as she is now still studying.

To get permission to continuing contact with her from her family, i had make some promises. I promise that will guide her and lead her to a better life as she is now in the growth stage. I will try to protect her and change her bad habits.

Everybody should believe me this time, as my promises is accord to my faith on community service -- I will accoomplish what i had promise.

在云顶之行以后，我和她踏入了一段暧昧关系。对于她的特殊感觉，我只能说像是一见钟情。我们的性格相近，我们的观点几近相同，但是年龄却成为我们的阻碍。很快地我突破了本身的心理障碍，但却又被卷入她家人反对压力的窘境。

姐姐是她家中最有权威的成员。当她知道这段暧昧的关系以后，她约我出来谈了许久。所幸，我们在之前的几个节目及活动中合作过，因此，我给予她的印象，还不算太差。

她告诉我说“她”是他们家中的宝贝，他们不愿她受到伤害。在这样的情况下，她们也过度保护她以至她有点依赖。

我同意她的说法，而我的立场则是，同样保护她。姐姐对于我们现有的状况及关系没有异议，然而她却不能苟同我们在现阶段发展成为情侣关系，毕竟她还在求学。

为了从她家人手中获得继续和她来往的通行证，我也做出了几项承诺。我答应在她这段成长期间正确地引导她，让她走向较好的未来。除此之外，我也会在保护她的同时，纠正她的一些坏习惯。

这一次，大家应该相信我，因为我这个承诺完全与我为民服务的信念相吻合--我承诺，我做到。

The World Is Pretty If People Doing In The Right Way 只有人做的对，世界才会完美。

I became referee for Kulai under 16 basketball championship final game. During the closing ceremony for the tournament after the final game, the chief committee spoke on the stage and one of his sentence illumine me.

"The world is pretty if the people doing in the right way." This is the conclusion of an story he told the audience on the closing ceremony.

I totally agree with this. The world become so awful now because many people is doing in the wrong way. For example, there are a lot of quarrel between countries, what is the exactly? Selfishness stand for a very big proportion. Taking advantage of other and care about oneself only.

If everyone in the world is doing their own job well, be responsible not only to themselves, but also others or even public, I think the world will be very beautiful. My friend ever tell me that, sharing is caring. If everyone know how to share and care for other, in the context of do not put himself into crisis, that is perfect.

我今晚在古来的16岁以下篮球决赛中担任裁判。在随后的闭幕仪式上，筹委会主席在台上致词。他的其中一讲词启发了我。

“只有人做得对，世界才能完美”。这是他对所有听众来宾讲述故事的最后总结。

的确，我非常赞同他的这番话。现在的世界，会如此的丑恶，就是因为很多人用不正当的手法来处理事情。譬如说，很多国家之间都会有纷争，其中真正的原因是什么？我想私心占据了一个很大的比率。他们都想占他人便宜，同时照顾本身利益。

如果这个世界上的人，都做足了自己的本分，同时对自己和大众负责人，我想世界将是很美丽的。曾经我朋友告诉我，分享就是一种关怀。如果每个人能在不伤害自己利益的情况相，给与别人关怀与分享一切，我想这世界就几近完美了。

Examiner, not an easy job 考官不易为

Few days ago, I went to Kluang and became lecturer and examiner for state basketball referee examination. I was told that as I am now a international referee, I should do all these kinds of job.

This is my first time to become an examiner. I do not get any instruction or indicator as an examiner from the authorised, so, I am force to find it out myself. This was the first challenge for me. Other than that, to decide whether the participant is qualified or failed, is another tough job. Human being always having self conflict and autonomy between mercy and fact. Lastly, examiner should be objective rather than subective in doing judgement. Subjective view and factors always blur my judgement.

All three challenges I faced during my job as a examiner. I was told that I might be given a title as chief examiner in state commitee, so that I have to do all these job in the future. Making my own review on this time performance, doing some correction and adjustment on my judgement, establish a standard for myself is what should I do currently to make sure that my future job can be done in a better way.

几天前，我到了居銮为篮球州裁判考试主讲及成为考官。他们告诉我，因为我现在的身份是国际裁判，因此就必须接下这些重任。

这是我第一次成为主考官。我并没有从主办单位及相关方面取得任何指示，所以我被迫自己找寻这些资讯。这是我的第一项挑战。再来，决定一名考生是否过关或失败，也是一项艰巨的工作。人类往往在人情及现实之间互相矛盾，怜悯之心也让自己的决定有所不同。最后，一名考官必须非常客观地做出决定，而非主观看待事情。我常会被主观因素模糊我的决定。

这三项挑战都是我在身为考官时面对的问题。当我受通知可能会接任州主考官职时，未来我将继续执行这些任务。在这次的表现中做出检讨，必要时为自己的决定方针作出纠正及调适，拟定一套所与我自己的审查标准是我现在必须做的，以便将来能有更好的表现。

Talks on Raising of Fuel Price 谈谈汽油起价

This afternoon, our prime minister Datuk Sri Abdullah Ahmad Bahdavi announced that our country fuel price raise 41%, from RM1.92 per little to RM2.70 per little. He also announced some alternative plan for subsidies Malaysian upon the raising price of fuel.

What is the reason behind this? Most of the residents do not think critically on this issue, they only blame the current government on do not take care of the public welfare, and related the raising price to the corruption. This is not fair to the government because the main reason for the price raising is due to the raising price of international fuel price. Our governmnet do faced pressure on this issue also. The international fuel price raise by 300% since 2004 but before the adjustment of the lastest fuel price, our country fuel price only raise by 80%. If government do not raise the fuel price, our country is going to bankruptcy.

We do admit that we should enjoy lower fuel price than other Asian country as we are also oil producer. But, our country oil contain is not as much as Brunei and Indonesia. Therefore, it is reasonable that we should pay more. Although i do not have any objection on the price raising, but I hope that government should use the money that save from the adjustment wisely.

Penang Consumer Association, as well as many economist agree with the price raising. They have broader view toward changing global environment. So, I think we should accept the truth that fuel price should be raise in reasonable context. Employers should also understand the difficulties of employees and raise thier salary to defence inflation.

今天下午，我国首相拿督斯里阿都拉宣布我国的汽油价格上调41%，由原本的每公升1.92令吉上调至2.70令吉。他也宣布了几项津贴措施予马来西亚公民对抗油价上涨。

油价上涨的原因是什么？许多市民没有深入去探讨这个问题，就将问题归咎予政府罔顾人民的利益，也将汽油上涨与贪污问题扯在一起。其实这样的做法是不对的，因为汽油价格上涨的主要原因是国际石油价格的上涨。在这课题上，我国政府也同要面对难处。自从2004年开始，国际原油价格就上涨了超过300%，而我国的汽油价格在调整之前只上涨了80多%。如果政府不调高油价，那么我国家面临破产。

我们必须承认身为石油出产国的我们必须享有比其他东南亚国家较低的汽油价格。可是，相比之下，我国的石油蕴藏量远远比不上汶莱和印尼。所以我们支付多一些的价格是合理的。虽然我没有在上调汽油价格方面做出投诉，但是，我希望政府能够善用这笔节省下来的钱。

槟城消费人协会和一些经济学家也同意调高汽油价格，因为他们对于世界环境的改变有较宏观的看法。所以我们必须接受汽油价格在合理范围内上涨的事实。然而雇主也必须顾虑雇员们的困境，提高他们的薪金来对抗通货膨胀。

Holiday 假期

Finally, my holiday started. This is what a student always hoping for.

However, life is short, and always unpredictable. We will never know what is going to happen next. Maybe I will no longer in the world tomorrow? (Touch Wood) In order to make your life meaningful, whatever you think should be done in order to achieve your personal goal, please do!

What is the goal for my life? This answer maybe appeare in my mind, but it sometime hard to be written. I know what should I do to achieve my goal. Different people have different views, so, maybe your goal will not agreed by others, but as long as you think it make sense and it can make your life meaningful, please ignore others.

So, I had my short-term plan, it's also my holiday plan. First of all, go GENTING!!! Haha~ I have to work for three months, and might not have time to relax anymore, so, RELAX first. I wish to go for a guitar class, learn something new to me. Due to the financial ability, maybe it should be delay. I also wish to learn community service. As service people s my part of my goal for my life, this is what should i start now.

Could I done all these in three months holiday? Hopefully~ Happy holiday to my dearest classmate also!!

终于，我的学期假期开始了！这就是所有学生所期待的。

但是，人生是短暂的，也是难以预测的。我们终究不知道接下来会发生什么事？或许明天的我就不再世间了？（呸呸）为了让你的人生更加有意义，只要你认为可以实现你人生目标的事，请开始行动吧！

我的人生目标是什么？这个答案已经浮现在我的脑袋里，但却又是言语无法诠释的。我知道我应该做什么事来达成我的人生目标。每个人有不同的看法和思想，或许你的目标无法被别人认同，如果你觉得你做的事是对的，且能达至你的人生目标，就应该不管他人怎么说。

我有一个短暂的计划，也就是我的假期计划。首先，上云顶！！哈哈！接下来的三个月假期，我都必须工作，必然没有太多的时间来休闲，所以先享受一番。我想去上吉他班，学习一些对我来说属于全新的东西。但是经济能力有限，或许这个计划可要挪后一些。我也想开始做一些公共服务相关的工作。我其中一项人生目标就是服务大众，因此我现在就必须开始了。

我能够在短暂的三个月内完成这些吗？但愿我能。。。我亲爱的同学们，假期愉快！　

Stop Discussing about Crossover 别再谈跳槽了

After 308 Malaysia general election, the issue regarding to crossover between parties never come to the end. In order to take over the current central government from BN, PKR real power leader Anwar started to persuade more than 30 BN Members of Parliment from East Malaysia who are seem did not satisfied with the BN government policy toward their state to crossover and join PRK. Anwar announced that he had get sufficient seats and able to become the Prime Minister and take over BN central government place. On the other hand, Pakatan Rakyat Perak state assemblymen state some state claim that BN support used money to persuade them to join BN and led BN to control over Perak again.

I wonder the motivation for them to become a politician. What is their primary job? Is it discuss about how to take over other power, or contribute to country's development and public welfare?I do admit that power could result in better contribution, but is it the main reason for a country development?

I strictly criticise those country leader who advocate crossover. Regime alternation is costly, regroup and reform a new government might be harm for a country economic. Invertors might hesitate due to the political instability. This is also a form of disobey public desire and decision. All the unfair practice will involved, corruption can not be avoided upon issue as monetary always the factors for them who crossover.

There are a lot of problems related to people's livelihood need to be solved. A resposible politician should always concern about this. Personal benefit should never come into their mind. If you want to gain benefit by becoming a politician, my advice is, please go into business sector as that is more profitable. Be fair to the world, be a moral person.

Please stop talking about crossover, DO YOUR JOB NOW!!!

我国第12届全国大选及308政治海啸后，跳槽的课题从来没有停止过。为了夺取中央政权，人民公正党实权领袖安华开始游说超过30名东马被认为不满中央政府对待他们州属的国会议员跳槽至人民公正党。安华指出，他已经有足够的议席来执政中央政府及成为首相。另一方面，一些霹雳州人民联盟的州议员则指责一些国阵的支持者利用金钱诱惑，以至他们加入国阵并使该州政府变天，使国阵再次执政霹雳州。

我质疑他们当初加入政坛的目的。他们的主要任务是什么？是探讨如何使敌营议员蝉过别枝，还是极力发展国家和照顾国民利益？我必须承认拥有政权能贡献更多，但是这是否意味着拥有政权就是国家发展的基础？

我强力谴责提倡及鼓吹跳槽论的领袖。政权交替牵涉巨额的费用，一再重新组织新政府对国家经济是一个破坏力。国家政局不稳定使投资者踌躇、犹豫不决。这也是一项违背人民意愿的举动。紧随而来的就是一项项的不公平作业，贪污在此课题上市无可避免的，因为金钱诱惑往往是跳槽的黑手。

国内还有很多大大小小的民生问题悬而未决。这应该是一名负责人的政治工作者所关注的。将个人利益搁置一旁，全心全意投入服务工作。如果你想谋取暴利，我的建议是请立足于商场，因为商场能让你获利更多。请对这个世界公平，对自己的良心负责。

请停止无畏的讨论跳槽问题，开始执行人民给你们的委托吧！

Save the earth, Save your life 拯救地球，拯救你我的生命

In a week times, there were over 120,000 life disappear from the earth. Myanmar disaster and the China earthquake were giving the human a warning about the earth was sick, and is getting serious over time.

After the industry revolution, more and more factory were built. The demand for unrenewable natural resouces, such as petrol, steel etc was grow dramatically. Different kinds of pollution were increasing at the same time. The greenhouse effect is affecting the world, and resulting in the melting of iceberg in polar region and also the hill. The sea level is keep on rising, but the clean water in the world is declining in contrast. Tree had been cut down, either legally or illegally. Oxygen is getting less, but carbon dioxide is getting more. Plant could not grow properly, animal are suffering. But, human who never affected are never aware of these.

Environmental issue is no longer fresh. Various kind of messge had been published through different kinds of medium, but human are still destroying the environment. The reason for the destroying is the monetary motivation. Human are greedy. In order to get a comfortable life, they do not care about the environment.

We should start save the earth, little by little. Please do not look down on your ability. You may change the world, you can change your life. What should we do next?

Switch off the eletricity while not using. By doing this, the produce of electricity could be reduce and the wastage or byproduct of producing electricity can be reduce at the same time. Cut down the usage of plastic, reduce the demand for plastic related product if it is not necessary. Do not pour the toxic liquip into the drain, and please manage the rubbish wisely. If everybody have the awareness of producing a green environment, our life will be beauty in the future.

For those irresponsible entrepreneur, our appeal is simple. Do not spoilt the environment for achieving wealthy. You will be abandone soon. SAY NO TO ENVIRONMENT DESTROYER!!!

在短短的一个星期内，共有超过12万个生命消失在这个地球上。缅甸的热带风暴，中国四川的地震给了我们人类一个强烈的信息，地球生病了！而且这场大病在持续恶化中。

自从工业革命以后，工厂林立。对于不可更新的天然资源，例如：石油、钢铁等的需求量火速大增。与此同时，各式的污染模式也日趋严重；温室效应席卷全球，也导致了极地及高峰的冰川融化；海平面不断上升，但是净水却在锐减当中；森林版图也被合法及非法的伐木活动而缩小；氧气越来越少，二氧化碳却高居不下；植物无法正常生长，动物遭殃；但是，人类却还没有觉醒到这股可怕的危机。

环境保护这个可以不再是新鲜事。各种相关讯息也通过各式管道散布，但是人类依旧我行我素地破坏环境。这个现象的幕后黑手还必须归咎于金钱的诱惑。人类贪得无厌，为了追求舒适的生活，牺牲了这个地球。

我们必须开始逐步的拯救地球。不要轻视本身的能力，因为你能改变这个世界，你能改善你的生活。该怎么做？

随手关上各没用的电器，因为这样能够减少耗电量，从而减低电能生产所带来的副产品。避免使用多余的塑胶袋，减低对塑料产品的依赖。勿将有毒液体倒入水沟，妥善处理所有垃圾废料。如果每一个人都能多塑造绿色环境尽一份棉力，我们的未来将是美好的而有所期待的。

对于那些不负责任的企业家，我们要给你一个忠告- 不要为了求财而在继续破坏环境。水能载舟，亦能覆舟；若对环境继续破坏，你讲被唾弃。对环境破坏者说“不”！

Primary school classmate wedding 小学同学结婚了

A rushing weekend again. I forced to come back hometown, decided it in very short time. Luckily I had finish all my assignment, therefore there isn't any worries for me in this trip.

My primary school is getting marry and having dinner tomorrow night. Maybe to all my friends who live in city, get marry is this age is quite amazing stuff, but, it is quite normal for me, especially in my hometown.

He is quite a treachery during his teenagers life. He discontinuing his study at 16 years old, I think. After he stop schooling, and soon we like losting contact with each other. Sometimes we met on the street, but just a very simple salutation and nothing more than that. In my mind, he is still someone who is naughty and not mature on behave.

I had change my mind tonight after I talk to him. He change a lot, in all aspect. He is like suddently became adult. Maybe, during the time i lost contact with him, is the time for his evolution. Everyone will be in their own evolution at any time, and I think I am currently in this stage too. Whatever happenes, I still wish him have a wondeful and sweet wedding with his wife forever.

Many people is start asking me, when is my turn. I can do nothing other than smiling to them and said, "soon...soon..."

又是一个匆忙的周末。我被迫在一个极短的时间内，改变我初衷，决定回家。幸亏我已经将我的所有作业给完成了，否则，我将不能高枕无忧的完成这趟旅程。

我的小学同学明天摆酒结婚。可能一些住在较发达城市的朋友会觉得在这个年龄行婚礼是一件非常神奇的事情，但是，对于我来说，尤其是在我的家乡，我经习以为常。

他在他的青少年时期，非常叛逆。16岁就辍学的他，很快的就和我失去了联络。偶尔，我们会在街上遇见，挥手打个很简单的招呼，从来就没有机会再寒暄几句。在我的印象中，他就是一个很爱玩，以及不成熟的青年。

但是，我对他改观了。从今晚我和他的谈话中，我发现当年的他已经变了，仿佛一夜之间成了大人似的。或许，在我和他失去联络的这段期间，是他人生的中的转变和进化成长期。每一个人都会经历各自不同的成长阶段，我想我也正处在这个时期吧！无论如何，我还是衷心地祝福我这小学时候的好友，以及明天即将成为他夫人的她，新婚愉快，爱情常常久久，永浴爱河。

很对人都会趁这个机会对我发出同样的问题“几时轮到你？”我能做的，就只是笑笑地回应说：“快了，快了！”

Night patrols team against crime 对抗罪案的夜间守夜队

I visited my primary school teacher tonight. She told me that break-ins happened few weeks ago in her neighbour house. Since that night, all the residents around could not sleep tight. A night patrols team had form during a residents meeting after the case. All the guys in that residents area have to take part in the team in a shift manner.

Certainly, the team might have some effect toward reducing the opportunity for a crime happen, however, this is not a long-term solution. For the past few year, Malaysia had face the increasing number of crimes related to robbery and break-in nationwide. Even the police force had trying their best by building up more police stations, this situation seem do not have any changes but getting worst.

Apart from talking about the effectiveness of the police force in the past, in my opinion, the unclear standard of rules are also the factors for the increasing number of crime. Punistment toward criminal is not able to create fear among them. I hope that a more stringent punishment can be adminster toward the criminals, for example, cane or death penalty. Implementing a death penalty is not a fulsome punishment as their action had endanger public life and safe.

Nevertheless, co-operation among the residents is another important elements to solve this problem. I had joined the night patrols team which form by my area neighborly society. I took part in few operations during night. This is a responsible for a good citizen in this crisis. But, i found that, not everyone have the same view as me, especially the young generation. They think that all these are the police responsible as they are taxpayer who afford for the police salary, and taking a rest and save up energy for making money will be more important. Everyone have their own view, we can't force them to have the same view as you. But my advise is, taxpayer do not mean you are powerful to control over others. RESPECT!!!

今晚我拜访我一个小学老师。从她的口中得知，她的邻居家日前遭人破门行窃。从那个晚上开始，附近的居民都不得安眠。在成立了一个居民委员会后，他们决定要执行夜间巡逻。每一户家庭的男丁都必须轮流执行守夜工作。

夜间巡逻队的成立确实能够有效减低罪案的发生，但是，这个显然不是一个长久之计。过去几年来，马来西亚面对空前严重的全国性抢劫、攫夺及破门行窃案。虽然警方在此趋势下设立了很多的新警局，然而这个问题却没有见到改善，反之每况愈下。

除了警察效率之外，我个人认为，没有清楚的法律条文来对付罪案是导致情况日趋严重的因素之一。现有的刑法对一名罪犯来说更本起不了阻吓作用。我相信，执行较严厉的刑法，例如鞭邢或者是死刑，并不会是个过分的举动，因为他们的这些行为已经威胁到了公众的生命与安全。

不过，警民合作还是一个扑灭罪案的因素。我加入了社区睦邻计划守夜队，也参与了他们很多次的夜间巡逻行动。在这个艰难的时期，我想这是一个好公民的责任。但是我发觉，现代人很少有和我在这个观点上起共鸣，尤其是年轻一代。他们认为他们纳税来支付警察的薪金，这就是警察的工作。他们宁可花多点时间养精蓄锐来工作赚钱。每个人有自己的一套想法，我们不能强迫人家苟同我们的看法。但是，我的劝告是不要认为纳税就代表了一切。请尊重！

Out Of Service 暂停服务

Dear Valued Customers,

Due to the coming HR test and basketball competition which fall on next week, the blogger service will be stopped for a week until next sunday. Thank you for those who always visit here and gave a lot of support. Sorry for inconvenient made due to the temporary closing. I will be back on Sunday night.

Management of Chenfanchong.blogspot.com

亲爱的顾客，

为了应付在下星期进行的人力资源管理测验，以及赴全柔篮球赛，这个部落格服务将暂停一周，直到下个星期日为止。 谢谢那些过去以来给予我支持，以及前来这里浏览的朋友。对于这项短暂暂停服务所带来的不方便，在此深感歉意。我将会在星期日晚上再次投入运作。

曾繁翀部落格管理层启

A letter to S3AC2 2005 给2005年高三文商2的一封信

To: Dear S3AC2 2005

I don't think anyone of you can read this letter at the moment, but I wish you all can read it whenever you find it. Someone who never forget you wrote a letter for you.

First of all, I have to appologise to you, because I never knew that there is a space about you. I believed that the space is created at least 1 year ago but I only know your existing today. However, you recall all the memories deep in my mind which i nearly forget. It is a wonderful memories, and it make me contemplate my future by look back to the past.

I realised that I seldom appear in the photo posted there. What is the problem? Is it the fault of the photographer? Or I am the one who always missing while they took photo? I think the answer should be very obvious.

Yes, I regret what I had done at that moment. I seldom took part in the activities organised by you, and I am like someone who is like dissocial from you. I seem very active in class all the time, but once the class end, I will try to rush back home as fast as I can. I also absent for those interesting activities like mountain climbing, chorus competition and so on. I don't think you like the way I treat you, and try to chase me out from you.

Nevertheless, all of these had gone. Regret do nothing and mother told me never cry over the split milk. I cherish the moment with you, the moment we have fun, laugh, and also cried together.....

I wish I could go back again, as Foon Yew High School and AC2 gave me a lot of happiness. But, time is cruel toward everyone. What I need to do is make the most of this moment, in order to reduce regret in the future is to fully untilise the time given.

Live is short, and what we ultimately waiting for are the same--the day which is the end of our life. Don't waste you time for those worthless, do spend your time on what could make everyone benefit from it， and create a platform for ourselves to make our live meaningful.

致：2005年高三文商2

或许你现在不会看到这封信，但是我希望有朝一日你能发现它，一个不曾忘记你的他给你写了一封信。

首先，我想对你道歉，因为我不曾知道你有了一个“属于你和我的空间”的存在。我相信这个“空间”已经存在了超过1年的光阴，但是我到如今才发现你的存在。无论如何，你将我深埋在心底、几乎忘记的回忆再度牵引。这些事美妙的回忆，同时也让我回顾过去，深思及展望我未来的人生。

我发现照片里竟然很少出现我的影子。这个是摄影师的错？还是我在拍摄的时候闹失踪种下的失误？我想答案应该很明显。

我承认，我也很后悔当时的无知。我鲜少参与你所主办的各项活动，对你而言，我就像是一个孤僻的小孩。虽然说我在班上是一个超级活跃分子，但是在放学钟声响起的那一刻，我便连走带跑往回家的路上冲去。我缺席了那些盛大的活动，就像南巴山之旅、3年的合唱赛等等。我明白也了解你不喜欢我这样对待你，也打算将我逐出“师门”之外。

然而这一切都成为了往事，妈妈也经常告诉我不要为已经发生了的事情悲伤哀号。我很珍惜和你在一起的日子，一起欢笑、一起作乐、一起吃苦、一起拼搏、一起挨骂、一起分享、一起哭泣、一起歌唱。。。

我希望回到过去，我想你也一样，因为宽柔中学和文商2给了我无穷的欢乐。但是，时间是残酷的，不只是对你，对任何人它也不曾留情。我们现在必须做的，就是充分利用时间，以期减少未来遗憾的机会。

“人生自古谁无死，留取胆清照汗青。”人生苦短，抑或喜悦常伴。我们所等待的，终究还是人生尽头的最后一口氧气。不要再浪费无畏的时间在那些没有意义事情之上，应该多花些时间在别人心中划下美好的回忆，也给自己一个平台来让人生更有意义。

New Life @ Blog

I will create a new life here, since i decided to have a new life starting from today.

What made me do such decision? No idea, but i knew that, it's the time for me to change now.

This is not the first time for me to do so, but why i failed in the past, i think is due to lack of volition. Therefore, this blog will be a place for me to decipline myself, and also, make it as a reflection for myself everytime i view it.

One of my weakness is my English level. Is the time for me to improve now... I will try to blogging in two language, and whoever expert in both English and Chinese, please help me to correct on any mistake and error i had made here. English version will be more generally talking about the topic, and Chinese version will allow me to go into detail with more emotional words.

Although i am now wanting to improve my English, i will never forget I am Chinese. This is not a wild man thinking, just a belongingness toward my clansman. While I am in Malaysia, and i have a dream to step on politician stage, Bahasa Malaysia will become important for me too. In such competitive environment, the theory about survival of the fittest is still ongoing, and evolutionism always remind me to be adaptability. How to achieve fluency in the three languages, this is a challenge for me at the current moment.

当我决定要开始为我人生目标寻找新出路的这一刻，我在这里增设我一个属于我自己生活的日志，一个新天地。

谁让我有了这样的一个决定？什么因素促使我改变？我也不知道，只明白是时候改变了！

认识我的人应该知道，这不是我第一次想要为自己改变。我想之前一再改革失败的原因，莫过于缺乏意志力。因此，我希望这个新的日志，能成为我鞭策自己的工具，同时，也希望它能成为我省思的净土。

我想我的英文程度是我目前一个非常严重的弱点。是时候为我英文加分了！我将会用双语来完成我的日志，同时冀望精通双语的你们，能够为我指点改正。英文版本的我将会很笼统地叙述相关的主题内容，而我将会以华语来让为这个主题增添色彩及丰富它的感情。

虽然我有志要加强英文基础，但是我绝对不是一个崇洋的人，我始终只承认我是个华人。这个不是一个偏激极端的思想，然而却是我一个对族群以及文化的归属感。当我生长在马来西亚，我不得不学习这里的国语；而当我愿与政治舞台挂钩共舞，将国语学习得流利也是一个必要的生存条件。这是一个适者生存的时代，进化论也一再提醒自己要懂得顺时代而改变，要如何达到三语并重及有所成就，是为我目前对自己的一个挑战。